i really like slapping myself to wake up.
i really hope it was a dream.
but it know.
it wasnt
wad can i do
This is wad i had done to myself.
but u know..
I REALLY DUN WAN IT TO HAPPEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is really BAD BAD BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had really fell hard this time.

i know.
everyone will got their own mistake.
but i had really made a stupid mistake in my own life .you know.
why!!!!!!!!!!
why had i done this to myself.
why had i suffer this.

yesterday i did not went to sch.
Instead , i called up to office and check. I called up the director in charged.
hais.
i really had no idea what to do.

now i juz got to hope that my average marks will be above 60%! that's my only hope.
And...
i had let down everyone.
i'm sorry dad and mum!
can i please wake up from this dream? It was horrible.

hais.
about today.
extra lesson at 3.15pm
yet i reached ard 3.40pm
lesson actually end at 4 but den lesson end at 4.15pm
Thanks goodness, the girl after me came late.
And i manage to grab back some time .
oh my. During my praticing time, she was busy doing her thing. See? so good lor. Money can be earn so easily.
I SHALL/ WANT to be a panio teacher in future. hais.
Den.. something happen la.
skip that part.
When headed home, I wanted to grab a copy of new paper. Because it written something "Death about billy" . You know wad. First , i went to bendemeer Mall . beside kitty shop . Ask the aunty for new paper , den stationary shop , next to the uncle at taxi stand , den at gelang bahru the two mama shop, and den another also dun have. WAD THE HELL!!
After that , went home, immediately check whether is the pit still available. Was very shock la. CAuse wanted to have pit 26 one. Since it was on 26. But den , someone else book it away .Yesterday i checked , still available. hais.
it always like this. NVM la. oh ya. WENT to gelang bahru simply to find AXN machine. CAN find until vomite blood ok. Went round and round . I SAW SAM machine. called penny ,but she said cant . After that went up to NTUC check whoever know where is the bloody AXN machine. A lady told me is at blk 68!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so happily, go around finding where is the blk 68. and finally i found the block. Den i told myself. Please don't tell me is the SAM machine. Looking around, no sign of any AXN machine. so i decided to ask people again. And the woman told me. "Orh.. u juz walk front, there ,there ." I was like... " HELLO EVERYONE, ALL I WANTED IS THE AXN machine.CAN! not SAM!!!!!!!!" sigh. ANd i called the SOMEBODY. And he was still in his house and told me later den book. i was like. HUH!! later no more HOW? oh my , why he does not have sense of emergency !!! so irritating. My whole day so so BAD !!!! Wanted to withdrawn money. THE MACHINE SPOIL! OH MY!!!!!!! there's only one ATM. As my card is UOB. i cant use POSB machine. so bloody shit . Lucky my mum called. TOld her i cant withdrawn money out. SO i asked her to buy instead. HAIS.
and i went home with the golden newspaper.
The moment i reached home, i coughed till i vomited.
juz a very bad day la. or maybe is my soul leaving my body ? or isit a sign of telling me.

Why good people left. I had this friend. Her cousin passed away . But u know , he was a very good person. His character, his behaviour, the way he treat the elderly, adults, parents and even his brother so so good.He cook well, he studies was good. juz simply so perfect , u know.
GOD only take away good people?

well. .
i was thinking...
if can, please take away mine. I cant held on sooner or later. i juz very disappointed with myself .
i juz dunno wad to do.
am i not good enough?
i just cant bare to face the fact .
HE said.

nvmlorjasgraduatesrrlateronlymadoesheconsidermyfeelingmythoughtswellimreallydownnoweverythingjuztakenplacebyasmallmistakejuz hope tml will be a better day.

i really like slapping myself to wake up.
i really hope it was a dream.
but it know.
it wasnt
wad can i do
This is wad i had done to myself.
but u know..
I REALLY DUN WAN IT TO HAPPEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is really BAD BAD BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had really fell hard this time.

i know.
everyone will got their own mistake.
but i had really made a stupid mistake in my own life .you know.
why!!!!!!!!!!
why had i done this to myself.
why had i suffer this.

yesterday i did not went to sch.
Instead , i called up to office and check. I called up the director in charged.
hais.
i really had no idea what to do.

now i juz got to hope that my average marks will be above 60%! that's my only hope.
And...
i had let down everyone.
i'm sorry dad and mum!
can i please wake up from this dream? It was horrible.

hais.
about today.
extra lesson at 3.15pm
yet i reached ard 3.40pm
lesson actually end at 4 but den lesson end at 4.15pm
Thanks goodness, the girl after me came late.
And i manage to grab back some time .
oh my. During my praticing time, she was busy doing her thing. See? so good lor. Money can be earn so easily.
I SHALL/ WANT to be a panio teacher in future. hais.
Den.. something happen la.
skip that part.
When headed home, I wanted to grab a copy of new paper. Because it written something "Death about billy" . You know wad. First , i went to bendemeer Mall . beside kitty shop . Ask the aunty for new paper , den stationary shop , next to the uncle at taxi stand , den at gelang bahru the two mama shop, and den another also dun have. WAD THE HELL!!
After that , went home, immediately check whether is the pit still available. Was very shock la. CAuse wanted to have pit 26 one. Since it was on 26. But den , someone else book it away .Yesterday i checked , still available. hais.
it always like this. NVM la. oh ya. WENT to gelang bahru simply to find AXN machine. CAN find until vomite blood ok. Went round and round . I SAW SAM machine. called penny ,but she said cant . After that went up to NTUC check whoever know where is the bloody AXN machine. A lady told me is at blk 68!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so happily, go around finding where is the blk 68. and finally i found the block. Den i told myself. Please don't tell me is the SAM machine. Looking around, no sign of any AXN machine. so i decided to ask people again. And the woman told me. "Orh.. u juz walk front, there ,there ." I was like... " HELLO EVERYONE, ALL I WANTED IS THE AXN machine.CAN! not SAM!!!!!!!!" sigh. ANd i called the SOMEBODY. And he was still in his house and told me later den book. i was like. HUH!! later no more HOW? oh my , why he does not have sense of emergency !!! so irritating. My whole day so so BAD !!!! Wanted to withdrawn money. THE MACHINE SPOIL! OH MY!!!!!!! there's only one ATM. As my card is UOB. i cant use POSB machine. so bloody shit . Lucky my mum called. TOld her i cant withdrawn money out. SO i asked her to buy instead. HAIS.
and i went home with the golden newspaper.
The moment i reached home, i coughed till i vomited.
juz a very bad day la. or maybe is my soul leaving my body ? or isit a sign of telling me.

Why good people left. I had this friend. Her cousin passed away . But u know , he was a very good person. His character, his behaviour, the way he treat the elderly, adults, parents and even his brother so so good.He cook well, he studies was good. juz simply so perfect , u know.
GOD only take away good people?

well. .
i was thinking...
if can, please take away mine. I cant held on sooner or later. i juz very disappointed with myself .
i juz dunno wad to do.
am i not good enough?
i just cant bare to face the fact .
HE said.

nvmlorjasgraduatesrrlateronlymadoesheconsidermyfeelingmythoughtswellimreallydownnoweverythingjuztakenplacebyasmallmistakejuz hope tml will be a better day.